Rocío Igarzábal remembers Ernestina Pais one month after her death with a heartbreaking reflection: 'The sound of pain'

Actress Rocío Igarzábal has shared a poignant reflection marking one month since the tragic death of her friend and co-star, Ernestina Pais. Pais, a journalist and actress, died at age 54 when her car was struck by a train at a railroad crossing in Tigre, Argentina, as she was en route to a performance of the play "El divorcio del año."

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I miss you, friend, and thank you... you know why.

Igarzábal posted her thoughts on Instagram, explaining that writing has always been her way of processing emotions, a practice she had recently paused due to life's "frenzy." She described the month since Pais's death as a "sad day" and found solace in discussing grief, despite feeling a "little embarrassed." "I miss you, friend, and thank you... you know why," Igarzábal wrote.

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How uncomfortable it is to inhabit grief. Sadness visits the body, floods it, at times drowns it, letting out scarce words accompanied by a sound that would say: 'It is the sound of pain.' We mourn stages, versions of ourselves, loved ones, but this is my first time mourning a friend. We have reached the month. I don't quite know what I'm doing, but well, writing and talking. No day is the same as the other.

Reflecting on the experience of mourning, Igarzábal stated, "How uncomfortable it is to inhabit grief. Sadness visits the body, floods it, at times drowns it, letting out scarce words accompanied by a sound that would say: 'It is the sound of pain.' We mourn stages, versions of ourselves, loved ones, but this is my first time mourning a friend. We have reached the month. I don't quite know what I'm doing, but well, writing and talking. No day is the same as the other."

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The show must go on, they say. A phrase that today seems absurd to me and in which I stop believing. I don't know if because I'm older or because I'm in a moment where I question everything, but time is needed. We need time. There are moments in life where we deserve the space to wither and bloom again.

She also touched upon modern ways of remembering those lost, such as listening to old voice messages or looking at photos, which now take center stage in the "nostalgia scene" of grief. Igarzábal challenged the notion that "the show must go on," asserting the need for time to "wither and bloom again." For her, the play they shared "disintegrated" after Pais's death, and she continues to experience "intermittent rains, sad days."

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Today the show did not go on for me. The play we were sharing together disintegrated, it crumbled in the middle of the farewell and here I am one month after everything and there are still intermittent rains, sad days.