Ahan reveals childhood bullying trauma and mother's harsh reaction

Taiwanese content creator Ahan, known for his impersonations and diverse characters, revealed deep-seated childhood pain on the latest episode of the public television program "Who Comes to Dinner 17." Visiting the family of influencer Lioliang, who enjoys dancing in high heels, Ahan opened up about his past experiences of being ostracized and his complex relationship with his mother.

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I was really bullied as a child. Every time class ended, the whole class would run away. It was so embarrassing. That was every day's abuse; you have to face this feeling of loneliness.

Ahan confessed that his higher-pitched voice and lack of skill in basketball made him feel like an "oddball" during his school years. "I was really bullied as a child," he shared, describing the painful loneliness he felt every day after class. His mother's response to his struggles was to question his own behavior, asking, "Why are people making fun of you and not others? Is it you who needs to reflect?" This comment deeply wounded him, and it wasn't until 2019, when he wrote about the experience online, that his mother called him, crying, to apologize.

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Why are people making fun of you and not others? Is it you who needs to reflect?

The warm and lively atmosphere at the dinner table with Lioliang's family was a stark contrast to Ahan's own upbringing, which he described as very serious and lacking in open communication. He recalled that his family was initially skeptical of his creative work, struggling to believe the videos were made by their son. Hearing the father in the visiting family express support for pursuing one's passions resonated deeply with Ahan, almost making him cry.

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It felt like my dad was talking to me.

"It felt like my dad was talking to me," he said, explaining that while his father supported him, he never expressed it so directly. This indirect affirmation of his father's love was profoundly moving. Despite the intense competition in the self-media industry, Ahan finds his naturally melancholic disposition helpful, constantly reminding him to strive for improvement. He uses his imagination to cope with anxiety, visualizing large audiences cheering him on to find motivation and balance.

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That moment I really wanted to cry because although my dad also supports me, he doesn't say things like that in front of me. So I was indirectly told just now: my dad actually loves me too.